A Wishful Night Of Bliss And Blessings

.the night is warm.

.the air is damp.

.i'm still sweating.

.time's ticking.

.i'm still in the haze of uncertainties.

.i wish i would be firmer.

.hope is still there.

.the quiet night scares me.

.i'm craving for Bali air breeze.

.i'm craving for serenity.

.i wanna freeze time.

.i wanna be wealthier.

.i should be healthier.

.i wish i'm wiser.

.i'm further than i'm supposed to be.

.to god.

.to affirmation.

.i'm still flailing.

.i'm still skipping my devoir.

.i'm still hoping my diligence pays.

.i'm still wishing for my prayers.

.i'm still incoherent

.i'm still addicted.

.i'm embracing my life the best way i can.

.my birthday's coming.

.yet i'm still nothing to be proud of.