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Colossal AssHat?? or Am I was On The Dream Of Becoming The Next American Idol??

with my recent happenings..I really need to giddy up and move forward..I can't say that the failure really hits me and make me really felt such a effin' LOSER but I know that I really need to move on..I need to build up back my confidence..I was demoralized..I was stunned, I felt all the things I've done such a waste..ahhh~ forget bout the past..think more of the future behold me..I really need to get back on track..That's the 1st thing that I really need to do rite now.
People do fails sometimes right? the best thing to do is that you've learned your mistakes and never to repeat it again. Nobody's perfect..I'm only a human..and I do make mistakes!! Moving to~

On the other side of Another story

On the evening of 19th August 2010, exactly on the 9th of Ramadhan, I've decided to berbuke with my Hunny at the CheeMeng Nasi Ayam Bukit Bintang. It was like any other day in KL, busy and packed,I've gambled my time and precious berbuke moments with my family for Chee Meng Chicken rice at BB.Bukit Bintang!! dengan jalan jam sume kot..takpe..kering bak kate my Hunny [Dua-dua kemarok nasik ayam Chee Meng]..and guess what..while I was having my yummy Nasi Ayam Chee Meng..Tiz Zaqyah *the artist tuh* passed me..I was shock and automaticaly my eyes was blinking-blinking towards her..while I was bermain-main mata with Tiz Zaqyah & at the end of the shop lies Natasha Hudson! staring at ME! I was stoked!! 2 artist in one time while bermate-mate with me..I can't take it..I was sooo overwhelmed..While my attention diverted back to miss Tizq..Natasha hudson who is on the other side was making a jealousy girlish face..aku serba salah..lalu aku terpandang my Hunny..aku tersenyum..tak kesah lah artist malaysia or Hollywood ke..hanya sorg je yang mampu buat aku cair..non the less my Hun..*winkwink*Gile Gempak!! cite aku!! cool bukan?!!* as my history with fellow Malaysian actress Sazzy Falak way already past me..such occurrence gives an Irony Thought - Am I an "MalaysianArtistChick Magnet"?? - Am I actually an artist trapped in a body of a living human which life which is such unfabulous and undeserve fame" *curiously thought..* tak leh blah cite aku*blluuwweerrgghhh - muntah darah*

sekian..selamat berbuke everyone!! Ini hanyalah cerita semata-mata tiada niat menyakiti atau menganiaya sesiapa..

It's not my time yet..or NEVER? F*#k!

oouuucchhh.. reality hits me big time, In My FACE!!..darn motherEffer! seriously..it was catastrophic.It's like someone just hit your face with a sledgehammer..so freaking hurts!! I'm lost..I'm wandering deeper into another solemnity of instability..dayymmnn!! It hurts man..you really got me off guard this time..I'm devastated..I really do..but I need to move on..expending and reconstructing another 'FuckedUp plan' and dive deeper into another uncertainties. *Good Luck with that*

I'm lost again in my own masze..I thought I've worked out my plan..it turns out..it was my plan who worked/fucked me up in the ass..IN the ASS!!

I believe things happened for a reason.don't you??..be calm and embrace it..The best thing to do now Faliq is to get out from your own hypothetically maze and learn from the mistake done..Move forward, never look back..I wish I had the strength..I need time for myself..I was drowned in my  own make belief so called "the  most integral time of my life" and I need to get out of it ASAP as I'm getting more paranoid about my future day by day and I'm not happy to my self about it..

p/s until the 3rd day of ramadhan I've lost another 3 kilos..kudos faliq..keep up the fat burning sensation..